AMAZING GRACE .......
saved a wretch like me
THE STORY OF JOHN
NEWTON By JOE MUSSER
cursing, rebellion, obscene stories and vile living characterized the
life of John Newton. His character was despicable and his total personality
filthy and rotten, until God met him in grace. He became a mighty man
of God and wrote the words of the famous and undying hymn, “Amazing
ALTHOUGH he was born
more than two hundred years ago, John Newton wrote a song which has not
only remained a favourite among church groups, but has recently gained
new popularity among young people. And it is no surprise to hear it on
any secular radio station you happen to tune in to.
What was there about
this man’s life that enabled him to write a song that still communicates
If John Newton’s
early life could be described in contemporary terms, we’d probably
say he was underprivileged. His mother died when he was seven. His father
taught him, but later remarried and brought home a stepmother to help
When John was eleven,
he went to sea with his father who was captain of his own ship. Behind
the captain’s back, the reckless and sin-loving sailors taught John
everything they knew about their kind of life.
By the time he became
a teenager, John was already well down the road and could down a tankard
of liquor and curse as violently as his shipmates. In fact, his intelligence
and creativity inspired some of the most blasphemous and obscene outbursts
It is likely John
felt he had to “prove” his manhood by matching every evil
thought or action of those who sailed with him. Yet he inwardly knew how
wrong he was. In the quaint archaic Old English words of his autobiography
(Out of the Depths, Moody Press), he berated himself for the inconsistency
in his life.
was taught by his mother to read and practice the Scriptures, but lacked
the will-power or courage to reform. He wrote: “I was presently
religious in my own eyes (praying and reading the Scriptures) but alas!
this seeming goodness had no solid foundation. Instead of prayer, I learned
to curse and blaspheme, and was exceedingly wicked when not under my parents’
He continued to waver
between wanting to do right and falling back into the old patterns. During
his early teenage years he experimented with every sinful practice of
the day. He could not only keep up with his older companions, he says,
but, “I often exceeded their vile wickedness.” In fact, John
drew great pleasure from luring some other, unsuspecting teen into committing
the same sins.
Through these years
God was trying to reach John for Himself. He allowed John to have several
close brushes with death. His escapes were totally miraculous, and John
was forced to acknowledge that it was only of God that he had been spared.
The first episode
happened in his first year at sea. While on leave, John was thrown from
a horse and landed within scant inches of a deadly row of stakes, which
would have impaled him. He writes, “Had I fallen upon the stakes,
I would inevitably have been killed. My conscience suggested to me the
dreadful consequences if ... if I had been summoned to appear before God.”
So John made feeble
reform attempts. Yet it wasn’t long before he’d slip back
into his old pattern - with worse habits than ever before.
TO FORSAKE SIN
were other close calls. Once he was delayed in getting back to his ship,
and it sailed without him - only for him to find it had capsized. He would
have been drowned if he had been on it. At another instance, John’s
captain pulled him - with no apparent reason - from a crew appointed to
explore an island cove. Most of the crew, including the substitute sent
in John’s place, were killed by savages from the island.
Again and again John’s
life was spared - and he thought briefly of God’s providence. Yet
the tug of sin was strong. John says of these escapes, “I was exceedingly
affected but I loved sin and was unwilling to forsake it.”
This pattern helped
shape John’s character. He had ability, but too often his problems
got in the way. At the age of seventeen, he was offered the captaincy
of a ship! But after a visit to a tavern and exercise of drunken temper,
he lost the position.
As a result, his
father made plans for John to take a job in Jamaica - work that would
involve a stay of five years overseas. John decided to go and say good-bye
to the girl he loved, and stayed with her three weeks. The ship to Jamaica
sailed without him, making his father furious. To help straighten out
his son,” Captain Newton signed his son into the navy on a man-of-war.
On leave following
a “shakedown” voyage, preparing the ship and crew for a five-year
sea voyage, John decided to visit Mary again. This time he was AWOL for
three weeks. In another instance, thought of leaving Mary for five years
was too much for him, and he simply fled. However, soldiers came for him,
marched him to the city jail and locked him up until the ship’s
captain came after him.
As punishment for
his absence without leave, John was kept in irons, stripped and flogged,
and the crew was forbidden to talk or have anything to do with him. John’s
bitterness and hatred grew. He plotted how he would kill the captain.
The five years at sea under such intolerable conditions made him desperate.
He considered how he would somehow get to the captain, kill him - probably
with a knife - and then jump to his death in the sea.
Before John could
carry out his plan, he learned of another ship in the same port where
his own had stopped. He was indentured to the present ship, which meant
that he (or his father for him) had sold himself into servitude for five
years. In desperation he asked the Captain to transfer him to the other
ship. The captain, who was sick of John’s troublesome ways, decided
it was a good idea. So did the captain of the other ship. And John was
captain and crew of this new ship welcomed John. It was at this time John
learned the ship was a trading vessel which plied its trade between the
Ivory Coast of Africa and North America. Its cargo — slaves!
It was the kind of
environment which made John very much at home. There was plenty to drink,
loud and obscene stories to tell and hear, and a diversion of a sort unavailable
on any other cargo ship. Female slaves were dragged from the hold and
abused by the most degenerate sailors while the others watched and cheered.
But after six months,
the captain of the ship died. Fearing that he might be transferred or
indentured on another man-of-war, John was allowed to transfer to a job
with a European slave trader on the African coast. This man’s black
wife hated John for some reason.
The trader left John
in charge of his business while he went on a trip to buy slaves. During
his absence, John came down with a violent tropical disease. The man’s
wife showed no interest in helping John, and, in fact, went out of her
way to take out the revenge of her own oppressed people on him. He was
nearly dead of hunger and thirst, but somehow clung to life.
His spirit was finally broken. Forced to crawl on his hands and knees,
he would claw the ground for edible roots or stagger along the beach looking
for a dead fish washed ashore that he would eat raw.
Sickness and sin
had taken their toll on both his mind and body. For almost a year; he
was forced to exist in this way.
Finally his health
improved, and he was given to a new employer who treated him well. Before
long, John’s hand in the business led the new employer to share
it with John, who was now finally happy.
One day, a ship came into harbour
with the news that John was asked to come back to England - not only
was “all forgiven,” but according to the captain, “A
relative of yours has died and left you a fortune!”
John decided to go back. As soon
as the ship sailed, the captain admitted the inheritance information
was a lie - that he was ordered by John’s father to bring the
young man back to England, and that was the way he thought would work
On the slow journey back to England,
John’s boredom was relieved as he recalled his old ways of diversion.
Before long, he had sunk as low in sin on this ship as ever before,
leading the crew in new ways of wickedness.
John Newton, though still a young
man, had several lifetimes of sinful experience behind him. His character
was despicable and his total personality filthy and rotten. People felt
degraded just being with him.
During this voyage, the ship encountered
a series of severe storms. Many of the crew were washed overboard. Food
and water dwindled or were destroyed. The holds flooded as quickly as
the men could bail. Pumps were handled around the clock, but they couldn’t
John along with the others, prepared
for the worst. It was utterly hopeless. Once again, John faced the threat
of death and judgment before God.
Suddenly a cry was heard - “We’re
making headway! The storm’s dying down and the water is receding
from the hold!” A gleam of hope. However, the storm continued
to buffet the ship with tornadic winds and waves sweeping and crashing
like liquid avalanches.
John began to pray - not the prayer
of a man who is on speaking terms with the Lord, but rather - as he
expressed it- “My prayer was like the cry of ravens” - screaming
out to God in desperation. The storm subsided. An answer to prayer?
John spent the next few days reflecting
- for the first time seriously questioning whether God would ever give
him another chance to repent. “I now began to think of that Jesus
whom I had so often derided.” John writes: “I could not
say from my heart that I believed ... yet I would for the present, take
it for granted.”
The four weeks it took the crippled
ship to reach port were agonizing to all aboard. For John Newton, it
was doubly so - for his soul was experiencing a crisis if anything more
serious than the physical hardship all the men faced.
But they made it !
And when the ship was safely anchored,
a new Christian stepped ashore.
John Newton responded to God and
the gift of salvation which was offered by his Son, the Lord Jesus Christ.
From this turning point he began to grow in faith and Christian experience.
Soon he was the captain of his own ship (on which he led his men in
worship services instead of revelry). and acquired a wife - Mary, the
girl he had loved since teenage years.
Looking back, John Newton - self-confessed
“wretch” - was able to write several hymns relating to his
life and experience and his sensitivity to God’s grace and mercy,
the most famous of which is “Amazing Grace.”
How sweet the sound,
That saved a wretch like me;
I once was lost, but now am found;
Was blind, but now I see.
grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved;
How precious did that grace appear,
The hour I first believed !
many dangers, toils and snares,
I have already come;
’Tis grace has brought me safe thus far;
‘And grace will lead me home.
has promised good to me,
His Word my hope secures;
He will my Shield and Portion be,
As long as life endures.
we’ve been there ten thousand years
Bright shining as the sun;
We’ve no less days to sing God’s praise
Than when we first begun.
we may not be as vile as John Newton was, but we need the Saviour just
as surely as he did!
All of us!